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Creativity
is a mysterious journey that connects us to the unseen worlds.
There was a time when all people had access to the unseen worlds,
although it was the shamans, story tellers and healers who mediated
between the worlds as they journeyed into the Mystery and interpreted
the images found there. Today we have our contemporary journeyers
into the cosmic unseen worlds--many creative people are such journeyers--but
as a culture we have lost the connection to our instinctual nature.
With the development of the human brain and the march of history,
the pendulum has swung so far that an overwhelming majority of
people do not consider the journey into the unseen worlds a possibility,
much less a necessity.
It
has become trite to say that modern society has lost its soul,
but in truth, that's just what has happened. Soul is something
that cannot be experienced in the outer world. It cannot be understood,
evaluated, judged. Soul is the groundswell of the inner world,
and the eyes with which we view the outer world are blind when
turned inward. It is only with the eyes of the heart--the instinctual
nature of our deep internal knowing--that we traverse the inner
landscape and find our way to soul.
If
our outer eyes are perceptive, however, and guided by our inner
knowing, we can see the outcome of mystery. This happens when,
for example, the invisible becomes suddenly visible, or the impossible
becomes suddenly possible in ways that cannot be explained by
the rational mind. Such things often happen on both a small and
large scale, but in Western culture we are quick to attribute
them to coincidence; if coincidence isn't sufficient, then the
doubting Thomas is convinced it can "figure out" a rational
explanation of the mystery.
How
much richer life can be when we are open to Mystery. But to do
this, we must be brave warriors of the spirit, with creativity,
both our fire and our sword. I see Creative Soul Works as a community
in which we support each other as we journey into the unseen worlds
to bring back sacred knowledge. We support each other despite
our fears and insecurities. We guide one another as we reclaim
the role of mediator between the worlds.
What
follows is a recent experience from my life in which the Mystery
was revealed and, I believe, I unexpectedly became a mediator
between the worlds.
About
six months before my husband's beloved dog D'Art died, he had
two dreams. In the first dream, D'Art suddenly ran off with a
pack of dogs. My husband, Ned, feared he would never see D'Art
again, but finally the pack reappeared. The first two dogs ran
past him, neither of them D'Art. The third dog thankfully was.
As D'Art raced in great joy around Ned, he called out (in English!)
"Dad, I went to my kingdom and it was so wonderful!"
In
the second dream, about a month later, Ned was walking down a
road when a pack of wild dogs raced by him. One wild dog broke
suddenly from the pack and sat by my husband. Looking up at Ned
with great love, the wild dog said, "I missed you as much
as you missed me." In the dream, my husband drew back in
fear and wild dog ran off. When he woke up, he was very sad that
he hadn't embraced Wild Dog. To this day, whenever he thinks ofthese
dreams, tears come to his eyes.

D'Art
was not sick at the time of the dream, but he was nearing twelve.
In July he suddenly fell seriously ill. When the decision to ease
his inevitable passing was made, the vet, who is a family friend,
came to the house. It was about 8 pm on a lovely summer evening.
Any thoughts of Wild Dog and D'Art's kingdom were far far away.
We were all grieving for the loss of D'art from our lives, and
I was most concerned about the impact D'art's passing was having
on Ned. But we knew the time had come, and Ned, myself, my son
and the vet formed an ad hoc circle around D'Art.
I
saw this circle of connection forming as Ned placed his hands
on D'Art. I knelt by his side with one hand on Ned and another
on D'Art. My son had his hands on D'Art. The vet administered
the drug into D'Art with one hand while laying her other hand
on D'Art. We were all connected through D'Art, who slipped into
blessed calm as the vet administered a sedative. We sat in the
deep silence of the unfolding mystery, and finally, the vet quietly
asked Ned if he was ready. Ned nodded and within seconds D'Arty
was gone.
Relieved
by the stillness and the knowing that D'Art's suffering was at
an end, I closed my eyes. It was then that the inner world flew
open. Instantly I saw a pack of dog spirits racing across a sun-drenched
field. D'Art, freed of a sick body, was bounding with the energy
of a pup. He was racing to join his pack, and all of a sudden
he turned toward me and sat, as if waiting. Our eyes met and I
saw that gleefully naughty expression D'Art wore when he was about
to take off for parts unknown in the outer reality. But this time,
he seemed to hesitate, and I felt he was asking me if it was all
right to go. I nodded and called to him, "Safe journey, Darty!
We love you!"
He
looked at me one last time with such love and joy, then was on
his feet and off and running with his pack of wild spirits, most
assuredly to his kingdom! This was very real for me, but not something
I felt Ned, our son or the vet would let in, and so I said nothing.
We finally decided it was time to continue with the burial. Ned
wrapped D'Art in a sheet and carried him out to the grave my son
had dug. It was a very big grave. D'Art, a Rhodesian Ridgeback,
weighed almost 100 pounds.
Ned
laid him in the grave, we all said our goodbyes and began to shovel
in the dirt. That's when we heard the first howl.
We
live in the country, on a mountain, and there are only a few other
houses near by, none of which had dogs. The howling was clearly
coming from the woods that abuts our property. Now, however, there
was not one but several dogs howling. It was an eerie, otherworldly
sound and we all stopped and listened.
"Those
aren't dogs," I said.
"Coyotes,"
said my son.
"Really?"
asked the vet. She listened again and nodded. "Yes, I think
they are coyotes. Do you often hear them?"
"No,"
I said. "There are coyotes around but we've never seen or
heard them."
The
whole time we were burying D'Art, the howling continued, its song
rising and falling. No one spoke. We were connected by this call
of the wild.
We
haven't heard or seen another dog, much less a coyote, on the
mountain since that night.
Were
these coyotes? Were they wild dogs from Ned's dreams? Had D'Art
run into the wild of spirit with them? Were they welcoming him
home? Thoughts such as these don't hold much interest for me;
rather I am honored to have been a part of this mysterious opening.
Even my husband and son, who are staunch believers in the what
you see is what you get world, remain awed by this event. We don't
speak about it often.
My
family is fortunate to live in a place where silence and nature
are ready companions. The most noise we hear are the birds, occasionally
the neighbor's children, a lawn mower, snow blower, or helicopter,
and the distant hum of a nearby parkway where no trucks are allowed.
I feel certain that having the privilege of having the vet come
to the house, of being by ourselves on the mountain on a serene
summer evening, are part of what made this experience possible.
Perhaps D'Art's spirit and I, with my comfort in the unseen and
my absolute belief in the power of creativity to mediate between
the worlds, became the necessary mediators that night.
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